Wooops!

What a way to begin a day: I dented and scratched my one-week-old car! Arrggghhhhh…. How frustrating! – not so much because it’ll cause an equivalent-dent in my pocket, but rather because it’s totally preventable, and it’s a reminder on what a poor driver I am. I kept on thinking: if only I had left earlier, if only I had looked in all mirrors, if only… if only… But I quickly checked myself: Astaghfirullahal’azim, that’s not the correct way to look at events that HAD happened. Saying ‘if only’ could be dangerous. Of course I believe in Qadha’ dan Qadar; all that had happened is decreed by Allah. Bila ditimpa sebarang musibah (albeit a small one like this) seharusnya aku redha dan bersabar. It had happened; I can choose either to be upset about it or accept it (and thence feel better). It’s not easy to choose the latter, but I guess it takes practice. Mungkin ada bahagian hartaku yang bukan rezekiku, mungkin ia ujian kecil, mungkin ia satu peringatan - wallahu’alam, tapi redhalah wahai hati yang gusar.

But this does not mean I should leave everything to fate. It’s a reminder that I should try harder to be more careful next time. What has passed has passed, but I have to improve on what’s to come in the future. And Hunny has been so understanding of my klutziness – I feel so much better, thank you dearest :)